I found a link to a website that has HEAPS of free lectures from Berkeley, Yale, Columbia universities etc on different topic from science to business to politics.
I’ve spent my afternoon with introduction to general astronomy playing in the background.
It’s pretty much heaven to me. I completely adore learning. I love filling my brain with as much as i can. It took me a long time to get this way, i really fucked up at university because my mind wasn’t focused on it but lately i’ve been so knowledge hungry.
Certainly wasn’t built on heart and soul.
I need out. I get the feeling however that everywhere else is just as bad. Rob told me tonight he reckons I’m jaded by Aberdeen and that’s why I’m so down, why I’m not going out much anymore and why its totally not bothering me at all.
The people who want to see me make effort to, just because I’m not stumbling around a nightclub halfcut and won’t even remember any conversation we had doesn’t mean I’m not still around and they realise that. Its really woken me up to who can be bothered.
Don’t get me wrong I haven’t gone all edge now, I was drinking last night at a 21st at a social club and it was awesome banter, I’m just not into the same club, same songs, same bullshit, same drama evey single weekend. I’ve been happier than I’ve been in months going to dinner, having movie nights and just generally being a bit more lucid.
I think the fact a very close female friend was assaulted by a guy who seems like the worst kind of dirty cunt upon googling his name right outside Korova hasn’t helped the case. I’ve no interest in getting knocked out thanks and I think its given a few of the girls, myself included, a little bit of a scare.
I’m not unsociable or boring now. I’m just over it. Ill still be going out occasionally and ill still have a good time just not every weekend at the same place. I’m sure ill get back into it at some point but for now I’m perfectly happy being a social butterfly without the people I don’t needs total bollocks approach to life.