this is about the most honest thing i’ll probably ever write.
For the first time in my life i thoroughly despise my body. I don’t mean ‘oh i hate my belly’ ‘oh i wish my bum was smaller’ because, like mostly every single girl, i’ve thought that at times but i’ve always felt comfortable, sure i wanted to lose some weight but i was always happy not being one of the drainpipes, having an ass and tits.
Now i can’t stand to look at myself. at all. It makes me sick. I look VILE.
When i had someone i thought loved me for me and loved that i had the most ghetto booty a white girl could possess and a cleavage i couldn’t contain, i felt beautiful. Now i see what he really finds sexy and I dont feel remotely beautiful anymore and i don’t think i ever will again.
Everything i believed feels like a lie, i don’t think i was ever beautiful or sexy. I don’t think i was ever what he really wanted.
I’ll probably delete this when i realise it’s a whingefest. I just needed to get it off my chest.
This girl has probally been to hell and back in the past fortnight and with that still has hope in humanity, her faith in love and with a smile on her face. After what she has been through she is taking things very well. If that were me there would be a lot more moaning, crying, destruction of many things and too much rum (that is what happened the last time anyways). Though we have never met (yet I must add, aberdeen is creepy small) I can certianly say this girl is certianly one of the most strongest people I have encountered and kudos to her. People openly seem to have a problem with her, and her no shit attitude that I respect her for and is open and honest about herself in the regards not everyone is going to like you and thats okay. In all honesty I really do hope he will realise that he is being such a fucktard however I know that reality doesnt always work out that way. In that case you will find some better, someone who treats you right and that there is light at the tunnel past all the epic shit.
Also I would totally have sex with her hair.
Wow. You just made me cry a tiny little bit at my laptop.